2022, The Books of

These yearly retrospectives have become harder and harder to write. 2022 is possibly the hardest retrospective to write, so let’s skip that and instead look at the books I read this year.

Fun fact. I began blogging more than twenty years ago and for the first many years, this blog was all about books. Granted, my taste in literature has changed over time. When I first began blogging, I was studying English Literature and tended towards reading (dead, white) male authors. As the years passed, I realised that I did not have to read books in which women were window-dressing or young students eager to have affairs with their middle-aged college professors. Yes, Tom Wolfe’s dreadful 2004 novel, I am Charlotte Simmons, left an indelible mark on my psyche. These days I read novels written by women for women. These books are full of female characters with agency and rich inner lives.

Fair warning. Most books I read are classed as “romance novels” — that means, people fall in love and work through their emotional turmoil to find a piece of happiness together. I like happiness. Happiness is good and wonderful, and we need more happiness in the world.

Here are some of my favourite fiction reads of 2022.

  • Naomi Novik: Uprooted - This was a present that I got to relatively late. Drawing upon East-European folklore, this fantasy novel had me gripped from the first chapter. It’s about found family, about accepting your Otherness, and forging connections where you least expect it. I loved it. As someone who very rarely reads fantasy these days, Unrooted was a reminder that fantasy can be beautiful and horrifying while also honouring its female characters as more than decorative set-pieces. I have more books by Naomi Novik in my TBR pile.

  • Lily Chu: The Stand-In - Gracie is stuck in a nightmare job which she needs to pay for her mother who’s in a care home. A chance encounter with a photographer changes everything. This is a warm, gorgeous Own Voice book about belonging, identity, fame, mental health, and family. I read this book while suffering from insomnia, and I adored spending a dark night with Chu’s novel for company. Its core message of hope really resonated with me.

  • Katherine Center: Happiness for Beginners - The Bodyguard - Get Lucky — This year was the year that I discovered Katherine Center. Each of these books have a different plot, but they all feature marvellously complex characters making interesting decisions. Happiness deals with finding your own path and finding joy; Bodyguard is funny and shows how two people can begin to trust each other under strange circumstances; Lucky revolves around bad decision-making, being human, and letting go. These books might not work for everyone (start with Bodyguard) but I adored them for their humanity, their messiness, and their innate warmth.

  • Jacqueline Firkins: Marlowe Banks, Redesigned — “WONDERFUL” I wrote in my book journal. The plot is simple, really: a costume designer works on a TV show and falls in love. But like most clothes, there are layers to this novel. The fears of chasing your dreams, the inner critical voices that mess you up, the value of vulnerability, and the slow burn of a hesitant romance. I adored this book for the anxiety representation, the many description of clothes and dress (and why they are important!), and dogs. It is also a lighter read than some of the other books.

  • Alexis Hall: A Lady For A Duke - a queer romance that had me aching. Violet has only just begun living as herself, her old friend is recovering after losing his closest friend in battle, and slowly things converge. The book is complicated, dances on a high wire but manages to land elegantly. Alexis Hall is an author who is hit-or-miss for me (I did not gel with Boyfriend Material, Hall’s big break) but this novel has a razor-sharp focus and full-on commitment that shines through every sentence. A very good read.

  • Elle Cook: The Man I Never Met - Hannah meets Davey due to a wrong number dialled. The Londoner befriends the Texan, and over time their friendship builds into something more. And then as they make plans to meet, life throws a spanner in the works. Reader, I sobbed into my pillow over this book. Some parts reminded me of the long-distance relationship I had with my now-husband (I’m so glad we are long past our virtual dates) while other parts just broke my heart into tiny pieces. And then all the references to one of my favourite films, A Room With A View. It is a lovely read.

  • Rainbow Rowell: Scattered Showers - a collection of short stories from an author I’ve read for decades. Some of the stories visit old familiar characters from Rowell’s books; other stories are completely without context. The snowy, wintery feel to many of the stories ties this collection together, and the wistfulness inherent to so much of Rowell’s writing feels like a comfortable hug from a friend. I still haven’t read Rowell’s Simon Snow books, but they are on the TBR pile and moving up thanks to this collection.

Some honourable mentions: Constance Gillam: The Hook-Up Dilemma (Atlanta-based, gentrification discussions, Own Voice), Suzanne Allain: Miss Lattimore’s Letter (super-cute traditional Regency), Evie Dunmore: Bringing Down The Duke (feminist historical romance), Sophie Irwin: A Lady’s Guide to Fortune-Hunting (delightful and hilarious Regency with one of the best heroines I can recall), Lauren Kate: By Any Other Name (romance set in publishing; slow-burn & bookish), Katalina Gamarra: Ben & Beatriz (contemporary retelling of Much Ado About Nothing; Own Voice), Ali Hazelwood: Love On The Brain (STEM people with feelings and maybe a cat), and Kerry Rea: Lucy On The Wild Side (gorillas! gross animal facts! people out of their depths!).

Not all of these books were written/published in 2022, but books are patient and wait for a reader to discover them.

I’m currently on my 178th and 179th reads of the year, according to my reading journal. I have only counted fiction this year, but I’ll start adding non-fiction and articles to my journal starting in 2023 (the only non-fiction book I’ll mention for 2022 is Carrie Marshall’s memoir, Carrie Kills A Man. It was great). I have not finished every single book out of the 177 I’ve noted down — there were some real stinkers — but I’ve read at least 50% before deciding whether to DNF (did not finish) a book. If I’ve read less than 50%, it did not count towards my reading tally.

Don’t worry about the high number of books I’ve read. I rarely watch TV these days!

As for next year? well, I’ll be back at University part-time to pursue a degree in Art History, so that will have an impact. Right now I’m reading David Mitchell’s Utopia Avenue (Mitchell is one of my all-time favourite authors, but this book is an unusually slow read for me) and Candice Carty-Williams’ Queenie (I just started). Let’s see if I finish either this year.

(Finally, I’m slowly making my way through a first draft of a novel. I have no idea what I’ll do with it once it’s finished — other than edit and revise — but it’s a nice late-at-night project for me to have when the day is winding down.)

What has been your favourite reads of 2022? And have you read any of the books that I loved?

Let’s Stay Together

The quote The reports of my death are greatly exaggerated is ascribed to the American author Mark Twain, though I believe it is a misquote. Regardless, as the social media landscape is rapidly changing, I thought I would give up a heads-up in the event that some popular apps suddenly become unusable. Who know if the reports are greatly exaggerated or just misquoted — I just want to make sure we can keep in touch no matter what.

First of all, this blog may be infrequently updated but you will always be able to find me here on my own site. I have been keeping a blog for more than twenty years and I will keep going. It’s both a great way to connect with people, but blog-writing also allows for slightly more idiosyncratic writing and personal updates.

The other places you can find me:

  • Patreon: this is where you can find my long reads. Posts include a series on the Everyday Wardrobe and how to customise your making so you end up with a wardrobe you will wear; a series on lace knitting; how we think about charts; the legacy of racism and colonialism in knitting; and also light-hearted posts and interview.

  • Twitter: this is the one that may/may not disappear depending upon the whims of wealthy individuals. I tweet about writing, knitting patterns, art, history, psychogeography, making, and dogs. Basically anything that pops into my head. I’ve found the comment section to my tweets a generally warm and friendly place where people connect and make friends.

  • Instagram: this is where I’ll posts photos, of course. I have a slightly uneasy relationship with IG because I’m very text-based.. But I love showing you where I live and what I make. I also share stories about my daily life when I remember.

  • Mastodon: this is a recent addition and one that I’m currently exploring as an alternative to Twitter. I have not made many posts (right now I am mostly posting about writing a novel) but I’m trying to build a community/find a community.

  • Ko-fi: this is something I set up after people wanted a one-off way to support my work without buying a pattern. I’ll be honest: I am not quite sure how it works and just like Mastodon, I am trying to figure out how it works.

I am neither on Facebook nor Tumblr (two frequently mentioned social networks). I am finding it hard enough to keep up with the aforementioned networks to add even more social media to my day! You can find my patterns on Ravelry, but I don’t spend much time in the fora.

As I’m growing older, I have seen networks come and go. I started out blogging on something called Diaryland (this is where I first met my husband!), then Blogspot and LiveJournal came and went. I vaguely remember having a profile on MySpace. I have built and rebuilt my networks and communities so many times, but there is something about the current social media landscape changing that I feel exhausting. Maybe it’s because we have been through so many changes over the last few years and I feel wrung out already.

Anyway, I do hope you’ll keep me company no matter what happens. I cannot imagine my life without the knitting community and if we have to jump through hoops (yet again) to keep our community going, so be it.

Or it may be great exaggerated. We’ll see.

A Big Thank You

A view of the Copenhagen Inner Lakes

On July 3rd 2022 a friend and I were caught up in a sudden, violent event in Copenhagen, Denmark. I was across to do research for my second book, and also took the opportunity to connect with family and friends. Copenhagen was my home for 12 years and it is always lovely to spend time in my former hometown. Unfortunately my friend and I were in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I do not want to share the specifics of what happened. If you want to know, you can always google the date and the location: plenty of news coverage will pop up.

Following the event, I received free crisis counselling from the Danish National Health Service and other emergency services. I also gave a witness statement to the police. At one stage I was travelling between my parents’ house in the country and Central Copenhagen every day.

A Danish harbour front

I cannot thank you enough if you helped me out by buying a pattern or a book, or if you donated to my ko-fi. You have no idea what a difference it made to me, but let me try to explain.

Danish train fares were very high and the British currency is very weak, so the fact that you helped me cover my train fares is incredible. I spent nearly £200 on transport in just a few days, as I had no way of pre-booking tickets nor did I have access to discounts.

Even more important: I had to leave my parents’ house in the countryside and find a quiet, peaceful place to stay near Copenhagen. Thanks to your help, I was able to book a quiet hotel in the cathedral city of Roskilde. I did not want to stay in Copenhagen and I could not stay at my parents’. My hotel was not particularly fancy, but it gave me a safe, tranquil base until I could travel back to the UK.

It proved crucial to my state of mind that I had space and time to process events. I knitted by the Roskilde Fjord, I visited the local museum (which had the Liber Eliensis on loan) and walked around the old city centre. I tried to keep things as normal as I could while life felt very .. not normal.

I also want to thank the special assistance teams at Copenhagen Airport and Edinburgh Airport who all ensured I did not have to walk through busy crowds nor queue in large, exposed areas. Everybody really stepped up for me - including when I couldn’t articulate what I needed.

A fancy door in Denmark

I am currently designing and knitting some fingerless gloves. I will be releasing the pattern as a free pattern as a massive thank you to the community who stepped up for me. I will be donating to gun control charities as well as mental health charities, and when the pattern is released I will share links to chosen charities.

What happened in Copenhagen is highly unusual for the country (my friend Z. who accompanied me to the crisis centre told me it had been 28 years since such an event had last taken place in Denmark) but sadly it is far too common in other parts of the world. I am pretty resilient as things go, but I’ll always remember the faces of the traumatised kids I met that day in Copenhagen. Let’s work towards a world where these things do not happen to more kids.

Thank you again for your kindness, your thoughtfulness, and your help. It truly meant the world to me.

An Interview About A Domain Purchase

Yesterday I gave an interview to a journalist about the recent knitting (dot) com situation - basically two tech guys bought the knitting dot com domain and, like so many entries into the knitting marketplace before them, they had appeared to have much confidence and done very little research. But they had dropped 80K on a domain and that was newsworthy.

You can read the article here. I’m cited briefly as a Scottish designer, writer, and knitter. I find that pretty amusing.

Actually, I wasn't sure if I should respond to the journalist request, but I decided to go ahead. Here’s my brief interview.

The journalist was called Chris and he sent me the following questions.

1) What do you make of the knitting dot com situation? 2) What does it tell us about the knitting (and business bro community)? 3) You mentioned that knitters often overlook the realities of the situation - what do you mean? 4) What should the knitting dot com bros do? 5) What, if anything, do you think needs to change about the knitting community?

Here are my answers:

1) What do you make of the knitting dot com situation?

1. I have worked in the crafts industry for over a decade (many roles; both big companies and micro-businesses), and I've honestly seen a lot of these situations: someone comes in thinking they are going to make a quick buck out of an industry they haven't researched properly. These people usually exit quickly.

What I saw with the knitting dot com situation is that they arrived at an interesting time. The crafts industry (particularly the knitting industry) is under pressure re. scarcity of raw materials, rising costs, and supply problems. Dropping 80K on a domain name just after relatively big and well-established players in the market have had to fold struck me as .. optimistic.

(Actually, adjust that to "wildly optimistic")

2) What does it tell us about the knitting (and business bro community)?

2. Listen, I applaud anyone who's trying to make it work in the craft industry - and particularly the knitting industry (which I'll focus on for the rest of this chat - we'll leave out other crafts). It's a tough marketplace where specialist knowledge is required, margins can be tight, and brand loyalty can be fickle. It's kind of immaterial that it is specifically *knitting* - it might as well have been fly-fishing or guitar-building - but I think the idea that the industry is dominated by women might have played into the amount of research done?

Chris: Do you think it's salvageable as a business proposition?

Well, more research is needed. Also hiring people with actual industry experience to consult. No, that's not my own pitch here!

3) You mentioned that knitters often overlook the realities of the situation - what do you mean?

3. In my experience, most knitters equate the knitting industry with people visible on social media - the micro-businesses: the indie dyers, the designers, and the lifestyle brands. Very few people expect big brands to be run by non-knitters. But it is an industry and many of the top positions are inhabited by yer regular business men (who do rely on specialist knowledge).

Many knitters have also been surprised by supply problems (products unavailable, dye formulae changing due to .. yes .. supply probs which means changes to products etc) and rising consumer prices.

4) What should the knitting dot com bros do?

4. Honestly, start over and make some smart hires. The launch of their product (whether the dot com itself OR their process in overhauling it .. even the actual product is confused) was .. not good. Hire deep, think smart research hard and invest in more than just a domain. They are also looking at a comms issue which I'd encourage them to address.

5) What, if anything, do you think needs to change about the knitting community?

There are definite discussions to be had regarding the intersections between the big commercial ventures and the micro-businesses, and also how we as an industry react to supply problems, structural inequality, and so forth.

I could have given Chris a long essay about all the ways the knitting industry is set to change, but that is the sort of knowledge that us consultants are being paid good money to write.

The issue goes deeper, of course, than “two tech bros enter the marketplace, call their future customers grannies with blogs, and then try to do damage control.” It relates to the viability of businesses within the industry and how prepared businesses (of any size) are in relation to challenges. Being prepared means Knowing Stuff, and with such a specialised product such as yarn (which has dye lots - something that impacts on stock levels, buying, costing, and packaging) you need to have a huge amount of specialised staff ready to rise to those challenges as well as actual space.

I have seen a lot of companies and brands fall at that hurdle. The average life span of a knitting business is roughly three (3) years.

I don’t think it’s a bad time to enter the market, actually. The knitting industry is in decline with many well-established players and partners having to shut shop. But it is one of those industries where you need to have the right people on your team, you need to understand your customers, and you need to have your authentic story ready to tell.

And that’s the very opposite of what we saw last week. Yet again. I wish the guys good luck and I hope they bounce back with a solid business idea they are willing to see through.

The Year That I Changed

Oh, all the best plans fall to pieces. After writing part one of my Everyday Wardrobe bullet journal use, I fell very ill and now I’m back on my feet all the natural daylight in Scotland has vanished. Roll on, Winter Solstice.

In lieu of taking photos of my Everyday Wardrobe planning, I thought now would be a good time to take stock of 2021. We still have a few weeks left of this year, but I have experienced so much throughout this year that I want to reflect upon it. 2021 has been a very different year for me and one that I’ll think back upon in the years to come.

I began 2021 in a pretty bad place. Glasgow was in perpetual lockdown while an old injury had messed up my left knee and I could not walk. By mid-February, I was finally able to go on 5-minute walks around our neighbourhood, heavily reliant on a walking stick. Professionally, I was working on a project which had me confront things that had happened to me in the distant past. It was creatively fulfilling but emotionally draining.

By April, everything was a mess though I was doing physical therapy and my knee was getting better. I took a very hard look at my life and realised that I needed more than just physical therapy. I needed some big changes. As you might imagine, these changes took a lot of energy and I had to step back from various ventures while I began re-aligning everything.

2021 became the year of change rather than a year of making. I cannot remember a year where I made fewer things than I did in 2021. My plans for my Everyday Wardrobe were pushed aside as were my knitting design plans (with a few exceptions). I wrote things, but things only meant for my eyes. As someone who thrives on sharing her creativity, this was a huge shift but also a necessary one.

It’s now been six months since I began intense trauma therapy and it has been hard work - and also a period of immense joy. I have become that person who speaks about gratitude and affirmations, and who spends an hour a day examining her life. A year ago I would have raised my eyebrows at the thought, but I am genuinely happier than I have been in a long time. I have begun swimming regularly and also invested in a better bike.

And so colours and words have begun flowing back into my life. With everything going on in the world (and there is a lot), I am incredibly thankful to myself for doing hard work on myself. I am more resilient than before; better equipped to take whatever the world throws at us.

2021 was the year of change; and I think 2022 will be the year of gentleness for me. I’m not sure what that means for my knitting ventures, but I think it means treating myself with kindness and gentleness. I have plans, of course, but I also recognise that plans can change. And I am going to be gentle towards myself when I course-correct. We are all just learning as we live, and I am going to nurture this thought.

I used to keep a book blog and do my end-of-year reviews. This year I have read 116 books (and counting) and although I am no longer a book blogger, I thought I’d leave some words on my favourite reads. This year I have focused hard on books by women and specifically romance novels. I may have a fancy degree on literature and have read all the “important” books (by dead white men), but when I need to be kind to myself I end up reading contemporary romance. And there were some great books out there.

  • Talia Hibbert: Take A Hint, Dani Brown. Queer academic suddenly finds herself going viral when her gruff campus pal rescues her from a workplace fire drill. It’s an adorable, funny, and diverse romance that I absolutely adored. (second book in Hibbert’s Brown Sisters series)

  • Denise Williams: The Fastest Way To Fall. This one is all about self-acceptance and self-love; how to grow stronger in your own body and in your own Self. It’s also very cute and sweet. It resonated a lot. The body positivity on display was great because it could easily have been done badly.

  • Susanna Clarke: Piranesi. The less I say about this strange beauty of a speculative fiction book, the better. Do not read reviews (though they are glowing) but just dive in and discover for yourself.

  • Emily Henry: People We Meet On Vacation. One of those books I reluctantly read based on recommendations, then cried for hours after it finished. Poppy and Alex are pals, until they are not. They go on one last vacation and hopefully they can repair things. Maybe.

  • N.K. Jemisin: The City We Became. Culture, myth, and identity all melt together in New York City. And Jemisin’s book does things with culture, myth, and identity that feels new and wild. It’s a speculative fiction book, first in a series, and I absolutely loved every sentence of it. So incredibly well-written that I can only marvel.